Actress Kate Hudson, who has two sons Ryder and Bingham, says she is a "bit of a wild mom".The "Rock the Kasbah" actress has written an essay titled "Sometimes I Feel Like a Bad Mom" for InStyle magazine, wherein she explains how hard it is to be a working single mother of two, reports aceshowbiz.com. The 36-year-old actress admits that she has a strange bond with Ryder, her son with former husband Chris Robinson, because she was so young at the time she gave birth to him. "I was really young, like, 23, when I had Ryder. So, our relationship has always been (a little unusual). I mean, we're close, and I am his mom. I'm big on manners. I'm big on politeness. I'm big on gratitude. But I'm a bit of a wild mom," Hudson said. She said she loves to spend her time with her little ones, help them with their homework and listen to their ideas, but at one point she just needs time for herself. "Some days I feel like I should win Best Mom of the Day award, and some days I find myself doing strange things that don't have any real purpose, in faraway corners in my house, and I realise I am literally and deliberately hiding from my children," she said.